Author: buildingalifeofhope

My name is Kim. I believe that life always allows us an opportunity for genuine connections with others. I believe in waking up each day, not with dread about what's ahead, but with the idea to expect the unexpected. What a miracle! There was a time in my life that I became voiceless; I lost my sense of self. Now I am learning how to live out loud and appreciate the small blessings (even the ones in disguise!) that my new life has given me. Through this blog, I hope to promote humor, honesty and humility and share the knowledge that no one is ever alone in any struggle that they may face.

The Mighty Fall

On April 18, 2014 By buildingalifeofhopeIn poetry17 Comments

Øyvind Gregersen

The mighty warrior of freedom had grown weary

Her values trampled upon

Pieces of her principles pulled away

Her mirror image tarnished by corporate forces

Waving their claim as ‘people too’

as an excuse to influence the laws of the land

Rights to vote

Rights to assemble

Rights to privacy

Rights of access narrowed

under the guise of false frauds, false gods and false enemies

Created through the soft wars on color, orientation and women and the poor

Leaving us all with the question: What does freedom mean to you?

Ms. Kellie Elmore gave us quite the provocative image prompt this week:

Use the image at the following link as your inspiration. I can’t wait to read the responses to this one! http://1x.com/photo/45546/

Well, I never like to get too opinionated about issues given that we lack a civil discourse these days. I am a woman of strong convictions based on my life experiences. Five decades worth certainly means something! But my beliefs are mine and I do not expect to share the same ones or to convince others that I am right. Actually, the image reminded me of a book I once read that has stayed with me for a long time. Margaret Atwood’s “The Handmaid’s Tale” was written in 1985 and I read it shortly after it was published. (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Handmaid%27s_Tale). I highly recommend it.

What Can I Tell You?

On April 17, 2014 By buildingalifeofhopeIn poetryLeave a comment

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I cannot tell you that it will not hurt

That the psychic pain will sear you

burn you to your very core

I cannot tell you that your body will become a wasteland

that you will look like a refugee from the worst of domestic wars

That you will feel like a starved prisoner

trapped in a situation for which you have no control

I cannot tell you that you will not worry

That every movement will be fraught with fear about your future

That you will be staring down that black hole of endless bills and debt

I cannot tell you that you will not be angry

Foaming and raging at the actions and constant manipulations of the other

That his need for control will feel like another constraint and strangulation

I can tell you that the pain will fold itself into the dark corners of your heart

That your body once again will be fertile ground

I can tell you that you will become a citizen of your own nation

a freed captive with a belly full of self-protecting ammunition

I can tell you that every advance will be fueled by your freedom

That the once endless abyss of scarcity will overflow with abundance

I can tell you that your resentment will replaced by indifference

that you will be the mistress of your own destiny

and the queen of your own kingdom

Lunar Tetrad

On April 16, 2014 By buildingalifeofhopeIn poetry4 Comments

I watched the Blood Moon rise tonight

Fighting to be center stage with the fierce Spring winds

Its appearance is a ball of dust in the gray black dusk

Shape shifting second by second

Securing its space in the sky

To the unknowing eye it is but a whiff of smoke

A vampy vapor vieing for luminosity

But the wind is hip to her vice

Shrouding her shame

Tamping down her flame

We’ll see then if the winds wins over this feisty dame

Monday and Tuesday night promised a lunar eclipse but the forecast called for rain overnight. I took this photo with my phone (thus the quality!) in order to at least get a glimpse of one of Mother Nature’s miracles. Sometimes my backyard is a slice of heaven!

In Your Eyes

On April 15, 2014 By buildingalifeofhopeIn poetry9 Comments

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She kissed him softly, leaving a pink tattoo on his cheek

There was a worn tenderness to his being

A sweet masculine aura

His greetings arrived like a whisper

Like velvet

Soothing as silk

A cool breeze that sparks your heart

They might see one another in a crowded room of familiars

and the world would still as he planted his lips quietly on her nose

They possessed an unknown affection for each other

A kinship of few words and many shared plights

They left no time for the niceties of the shallow “How are yous”

Instead the river of their words ran strong and deep

When her need for him was acute,

she would conjure a prayer to the universe

wishing for his manifestation

His presence gave solace to her soul

Life stories shared

Life stories held

Life stories with no judgement

Each on separate paths

Tending the fires of their own loves

Rejoicing in one another’s journey

A Wiser Woman

On April 14, 2014 By buildingalifeofhopeIn poetry9 Comments

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She’s just like him

Words of wisdom from a child

He keeps his distance

Stands his ground

I had never seen her

But became acutely aware of her on that April morning

You know that feeling when someone is looking at you behind your back?

I turn to look

She penetrated my gaze

Followed me out the door

I turned once again

Laser-like, strong in my volley

I sensed an artist of insinuation in my midst

I knew we would meet again

I began to notice and be alert for her comings and goings

She was easy to spot

Devoid of femininity

Nearly transparent in nature

Rail-thin

Her body a void

Dressing as a slacker social climber

Expensive jeans

made by poor souls in Bangladesh no doubt

The Designer Look that lacks originality

She appears to be his twin

A mirror image of him

As the seasons change, she creates a perch in the shop

A table by the window for her phone, Ipad and coffee

Trying to look earnest and important

She is a user of men

Flaunting her wiles for her own gain

Acting helpless while they lick her feet

I cannot warn them

I can only watch

Be careful my boy says

Keep quiet

Those behind the counter are trained to smile

but are aware of her guile

Her mission with me is incomplete

I am replete with stellar intuition

and spiritual revelation

I can handle any situation

My grace and style help me walk the mile

She hasn’t been around in a long, long while

Being in the Distance

On April 13, 2014 By buildingalifeofhopeIn poetry4 Comments

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I smelled the rain before I saw it

Butter in the air

The roads were still dry after yesterday’s Spring baking

A welcome sign then after Winter‘s marathon of cold

As I neared the pond, I could hear the first drops’ pings hit the leaves

Too late to turn back and I never would anyway

By mile 1 the roads were already glistening

I was stiff and moving slow

but not really thinking of when I would end this march into my daily reverie

Warming up the mind occurs at mile 2

When the bell tower was reached, I turned to hear a friendly beep

My white truck clad neighbor

An incentive to go further than planned

The rain drops seemed to miss me

as I descended the long hill

and turned left on the only flats I swear exist in this town

My cares and worries from yesterday fell to the pavement

melting with the sky’s happy tears

My Sunday expedition reminds me of why I lift my feet

take in my surroundings

watch my world change minute to minute

I take stock and notice with all of my senses

I seem to float on the next mile’s ascent

This town is full of hills

A runner’s speed work in disguise

I realize the rain has picked up but I am barely wet

This is a good place to be

Alone

To not worry about what’s coming next, to just keep moving forward

Siridean

On April 12, 2014 By buildingalifeofhopeIn poetry25 Comments

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They may not know Her

But she knows their thoughts

She senses their neediness

their desires

the impulse to share their story

-a piece of themselves

She does not judge

She feels their pain

The stain

of their indignities and indiscretions

their joys and sorrows

When She walks down the street

a sea of people part

nearly bowing in reverence

to Her very presence

They cannot help themselves

They yearn to touch Her

Her very being is an illumination

a soft glowing beacon

Her attention is discreet

The slightest of touches

temper their souls

surrounding them

in a healing blue light

She is a weaver

a Tantra goddess melding together

the human and divine

A starry messenger

A natural-born remedy

A harbinger of peace if only for a whisper of time

Not sure where I got this from to be honest. Thanks once again to Kellie Elmore for taking me to a place and space I never expected to go! Plus the added bonus of adding Poem #12 to WordPress’ challenge!

Namaste’ my friends!

A Spring Namaste’

On April 11, 2014 By buildingalifeofhopeIn poetry4 Comments

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Daybreak, a new illumination

Night whispers goodbye

as Venus lights the sky

My celestial companion kissing my window

I breathe

Seeking my own inner radiance

before the day’s illusions break the spell

The scenery is losing its bleakness

The tough alloy of the dead season

surrendering to the still fragile newborn

I taste the softness of the new dawn

The air a crisp green apple

My breath white and warm

with the rhythm of my feet

The old beech that holds the bend

is surrounded in a yellow glow

My aching body is grateful in its movements

Each step a stretch and release

The coyotes call heard, but not seen

Fox and deer leave their traces invisible, but present

Do they watch me as I forge my morning path?

My thoughts wander much like me

Familiar with the way

Creating my own inner landscape

as I enter a new day

‘Til We Meet Again

On April 10, 2014 By buildingalifeofhopeIn poetry9 Comments

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The bags are barely unpacked

I take the clothes out in dribs and drabs

Stuffing them back in the drawers or laundry basket

without a care

Some strewn on the floor

as if they were discarded in a heated moment between lovers

We’re travelers together, you and I

Leaving pieces of ourselves behind each time we part

My mind often goes back to the moments in flames

When lust and desire ignited our hearts

We followed no set path

Seeing only with our Third Eye

Falling into the abyss without reservations

I want to keep the clothes where they lay

A suitcase half packed

The “go bag” for the next wandering

An oh-so-sweet drifting

That next leap

Enfolded

Enveloped

in the Ecstasy that is Us

The In-Between

On April 9, 2014April 9, 2014 By buildingalifeofhopeIn poetryLeave a comment

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I live in that space between then and when

I am neither here nor there

Moving out of the now into what was meant to be

The here having a lesser hold on me, a looser tie

The there tugging at my heart strings and molding my mind

In this middle midst I place myself

Setting free the old wounds

Knowing I have given birth to many new lives

Pieces of myself

made whole once more