Standing in the steam talkin’ to my ex
A forceful voice over the wireless
I hear it now:
My son taking sides
Being fed information based in lies
The conversation drags on
The steam disappears
We start conversing
about what happened over the years
The voice becomes softer
The heat lamp goes on
I am trapped in my nakedness
As he turns the DENIAL button on
It’s the same old song
Of course I’m the one that’s done wrong
I listen to his “reality”
and the problems with my personality
I choose my words carefully
I am getting colder, my clean hair lies flat
I want to put a stop to this endless chat
I hear his “love” or is it manipulation?
I need to get out of this sticky situation
I vacillate between trust, guilt and fear
Yet, through it all my decision is clear
The steam is gone, the heat lamp turned off
There is no hope for us now
He has not faced his “stuff”
It is time for my own life
Enough is Enough
*(AUTHOR”S NOTE: This a poem that I found in a journal from 2008- a year of tremendous personal upheaval. It is an actual scenario that occurred. I remember sending it to my now late mom who loved the truth and strength in it. I am sure that she would be proud that I am sharing it with a wider audience.)